Bronte Back to Back?

COULD IT BE YOU JUST DRIVE ME INSANE!?
Well into my second year at university now and it seems to be that my love for art is slowly dying a mutilating death, its being tortured and tormented by people so driven by the corporate world its sickening. What the hell happened to creating art for it to just be? I love drawing and I love Painting, when did digital become beautiful, one completely agrees it enhances work and can take something stunning and make it perfection yet, this can NOT be achieved by just digital, and i refuse to believe that people who argue this are correct...matter of fact. I applied to a university that promised to enhance my natural skills and teach me to apply them to different styles, a university where they would teach us to grow as people. This was true for my first year and i began experimenting with styles that weren't mine before and i began to understand what influenced me and what made me strive to grow, however this year all i have learnt is that i pay £3000 a year for guest lecturers that are never illustrators, for tutors 100% driven by career and not heart, for tutorials which condone using our first idea and applying a style we don't like, for marks that seem to be better if you leave all your work till the week or more commonly day.
Hmmm....
I feel determined not be beaten by incompetence, and so still continue to jump through their hoops, feeling nauseous every time i do. It seems those who do NOT put in the work and whom do not have a layered meaning to their work do better, maybe stupidity is bliss? This semester i will now apply this...all my work will be...well...DULL! HEY! lets make a photo collage on photoshop, lets make an animation that's outta shapes...watch me flourish.
I wish to LEARN!
I want to learn how to display emotion in 2D Characters, i want to know how to tell when something is done, i want to know how to make wall - paper prints, i want to know how to apply speech to illustrations appropriately, i want to know how to apply paint to illustrations with-out making them gaudy.
Anyone think they could lend a hand?

Peace Out x