Lets Sort It Out Shall We.

So here we go a self-wanted, self-directed,self-encouraged blog.
No brief to force me, no grade to push me, completely free.

It has come to my attention over recent time (today) i have a fondness for odd music, grotesque art, exquisite food and ridiculously crude literature, i use the term literature loosely.
Thinking about these things made me realise i express myself in my art,design,illustration whatever you want to call it, more than i had in fact noticed.
I am not what you would call a cocky confident person anymore, however the word vanity speaks volumes for my presentation and work, maybe not vanity in the concept of how you perceive it but vanity none the less.
I care about my presentation and that i look good, but good by who's standards, certainly not by that of vogues, or some other religiously tedious fashion drivel. Yes that's right i have no fear in slating what most love. Just how others reserve no demeanour to slate what i love and what i am.
I guess its fair to say "Fuck You".
I once heard a quote, which I'm 100% sure is not factual, but made sense none the less, that we humans seem to get a positive, seductive, adrenaline pulse from making negative comments.
"She looks fat today", Somehow seems to make the one making the statement feel better, are they in fact insecure about themselves that they need to spite? This is the same with art. Being that i am a growing artists i too have done this myself, you will find a flaw in a piece of work which you find skillful, obviously described as jealously. Or is it? Why should this be jealously, is it not human nature, i am not jealous that someone could create beauty, i can too its just more challenging. Besides as they say beauty is in the eye of the be-holder.
Hm..so what have i learned, that i despite conforming strive to break free....always shall i do this, But as a human being it is in our nature to do such things which enable us to break free.

I only hope that this makes sense to someone else out there.
Ciao x